Today was … not too good. The day before I was made aware of something I should have known, but didn't. I searched all my mails and honestly found traces that go back as early as end of last week when the problem was in somebody's hands since the beginning of this month.
I'm split between standing by my guns, which I find just lame because the finger pointing game is just not me, and merely straightening things out and go further, proceed.
AH is back from Nokia (the city) tomorrow. We shall see what he'll say about this.
Gosh! It's unreal how WO really lacks spine. And such a drama queen at that. I just can't stand loud mouths.
I anticipate tomorrow is going to be … difficult.
First time I want to quit.
MV sent me a sort of SOS e-mail asking me to help her write an answer to her supervisor in which she'd make a point in proving this and that and other things.
I'm sorry, I guess I'm feeling more and more comfortable with my own hierarchy but nothing in what she wrote proved anything but that she was wrong.
By essence being systematically right is suspect. This said, nothing tells me when I'm wrong/right. Except maybe the underneath layer of guilt (what better/other word ?) that informs me of some not so clean interest or bullshit I'm digging my head in, hiding myself behind.
I chose to shape up an answer in which I basically advised her to drop the matter and comply with what she was asked to do.
I detest conflicts.
I'm not saying I totally adopted it but I'm willing to give it a try.
I woke up at 4 with my neck kind of stiff and hurting a bit.
Wherever I go, I systematically put all pillows away. I'm allergic to dust and ever since a doctor said to Mum I'd sleep better without pillow so I did.
Until today… last night rather.
It's been 30 years.
A small step for mankind though a major one for breaking old habits.
later in the day:
I don't think I won't be able to resist much longer. I bet my bank card is wondering what is wrong with me (built-in digital clock probably tells it what day it is).
Later … later:
My lazyness and reluctance to go out when it's dark (little after 4 these days) saved me and the card…